fuck.
2007-12-22 at 12:04 a.m.
fucking hell.
rarrgh. it's un-fucking-believeable that the two weeks after the exams ended have been more frustrating and pissifying than an entire semester of school, the TJC project included. at least when i'm staying up to all hours rushing a last-minute essay, or writing blabbery 'testimonials' for unknown JC students, there was a purpose. the TJC project was to earn money. the essays were for myself. and in general, they were excellent essays, if i do say so myself.
this? why the fuck am i doing this? and, disregarding that, why the fuck does it have to be such an fucking waste of my time? it's an exercise in total mediocrity, at best. first of all, i cannot believe that i am involved in so much shit work, for no reason, and even worse, i'm doing something that, even now, even in the process of being done, is showing that it has all the makings of a complete, total, utter flop. speaking as a semi-Lit major, the plot, frankly, sucks. trite and banal, overused plot 'twists', and a lack of understanding the ways people speak and interact in real life, plus a total dearth of linguistic sensitivity. and that's just looking at the script.
as a person who likes watching TV, movies, etc, and a person who took a fim module, the 'cinematography'—if it can be termed such—sucks. it annoys and pains me just to think of how bad it is.
RAARRRGHH.
plus, just because it's convenient for you, does not mean it's convenient for me, not that my convenience is of any concern of yours, as yoy've made more than evident to me.
just because i am little more than a glorified saikang worker, does not mean that you should ignore the fact that i am a human too. i get tired too, and you shouldn't be ordering me to tromp all over the freaking world just because you can.
just because i am little more than a glorified saikang worker does not mean that you should call me up at 12plus and expect me to carry out your demands immediately and with the results you want, because many things are out of my control. it's bad enough that i have to put aside my dignity to beg with people to accept 'our' ruthlessly unprofessional and distasteful ways, don't expect other people to come and help you if you're going to give them last minute notice, especially when they have no reason to give a shit about how this entire thing turns out.
FUCK.
stupid fucking FUCKING hell.
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck!
argh!!!
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ugh.
seriously, i'll be glad when this is done, because i'll ask my friends to come and snigger at the pathetic crap you've created.
oh yes i will.
and i guess that will have to be enough, since punching your lights out or telling you to FUCK OFF is just not going to happen.