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2007-11-04 at 10:12 p.m.
well, this saturday was one of the funnest i've had in a while, what with good food, great company, an exciting new place, fun and laughs, and not to mention drama, in a parking lot, no less. haha.
aside from that, this weekend hasn't been all that fantstic. you know how some days, everything goes the way you want, nothing goes wrong, etc? this was not one of those weekends. from big things—thanks for friday night, btw, G, to littler things—like my oreo cupcakes, which were a total failure, this weekend hasn't been all that excellent. sure, it wasn't horrid, but, well. it could've been better.
still, decisions have been made, and in between the things that have happened, i've had a lot of time to think about things. i know a couple of you are prolly thinking that i'm a gigantic coward, so i'll just come out and say it. yes, i am. there are things i should say, people in my life that i want to say 'fuck off and die' to, but i'm too chickenshit-scared to do it, to rock the boat, to do something before i've got an escape route planned. i know it. and, even knowing it, i don't think i can actually step up and do what i know i should. a part of me says, "it's not time yet, it's smarter to wait.", but another part of me says 'waiting' is just an excuse. i've done things and made decisons that i've been able to come to terms with, but this, this is not one of them.
i guess what i'm trying to say is that i don't know what to do.
who am i, really? i don't know anymore.