i want that hangover!
2007-09-15 at 9:51 p.m.
ARRRR! all this crap is piling up on me and i just want to run away!!! walked out to 7-11 today, and as i passed kent ridge terminal, the thought flashed in my head that everything i needed—money, ez-link card, debit and atm cards—was in my wallet, and i could just walk up onto a bus, and get away from all this crap. i really want to just run away and hide under a rock, in a forest, whatever. but, despite having said in the past that i am in no way a responsible adult, and that people should just not expect me to be, i guess a small part of me is somewhat responsible, because i just kept walking to 7-11, then back again, and sat my butt down and started writing more bullshit for undeserving morons. siigh.
i want to go out and rip-roaring drunk. i want to stay out all night, i want to sit somewhere in the chiily predawn and watch the sun rise through alcohol-drowsy eyes. i want to get a.w.a.y from this damned laptop, totally away, for a night. i want to spend a night in the company of friends, not thinking about anything at all, not "how am i going to get home?", "what time is my curfew?", "if i sleep too late then i'll wake up too late then i won't have time to do much work.."
i just want to go and get wasted. and not think.
sigh
i want to get away from this me who is sitting at my table shamelessly hacking clichés for too little money. uhff.