I drive myself crazy
2007-09-10 at 10:09 p.m.
oh jeez, get out of my head! i spend my life going about in circles. no, just one circle, really. OH MY GOD! i'm going insane. I'm driving myself insane. oh god. things happen, happy things, that are just filling my head with too many thoughts and i am going stark raving mad. I need to just. stop. thinking. about these things. there are too many things i have to do to waste my time thinking about stupid things, irrelevant things, just. things.
ohmygodmakeitstop!
this sucks. i have to get out of this self destructive cycle. as much as i'd like to place the blame all on you, i know that this is all me. me me me me me.
the crazy thoughts are swirling about in my head in a mad tempest, and i just can't tell anyone.
And I would that my tongue could utter
The thoughts that arise in me
—Tennyson, Break, Break, Break