no, really.
2007-09-07 at 12:50 a.m.
sometimes i get the sense that i'm biting off more than i can chew. i assure people that i can and will get things done, well and on time, and i think i do it well, too, but half the time i get the feeling that it's just false bravado.
i don't know. it's not often i feel this insecure about myself or my abilities, but this is one of those times. and the worst thing is, i just keep going, taking projects onboard, exuding this can-do-ness that even i don't know whether is false or not. sigh.
M, if you see this before monday, don't freak out. really. it's just the still of the night is getting to me is all.
don't worry. i won't bail on you.
See? i'm doing it again.
what is it in me that provokes this knee-jerk reaction of firm assurance—whether or not i am really feeling that way?
Not to say, of course, that i am just lying to M. it's just that sometimes even i doubt the verity of the words that come out of my mouth.
sheesh.