some days
2007-07-02 at 9:39 p.m.
Sometimes i wish things would go back to the way they used to be when we were kids. not in the 'no homework, no work, no studying' way, but in the way we interact with people. where we had the liberty to say, straight to people's faces, "i don't like you, go away". sometimes i wish i could do that. it'd be nice not to have to consider people's feelings, or how, even if one did decide to just screw it and say 'fuck off', many other people would be affected. interpersonal relations, i've come to feel, are way overrated.
there are days where ijust feel so tired of the endless charade we all put up, pretending that everyone likes everyone else, for a myriad of different reasons. some days, i just want to end it all, burn my bridges and the consequences be damned. but i never do. or not really, anyway.
Some people scoff, but it really isn't easy to be completely unreasonable or bitchy to someone who hasn't done anything intentional to deserve it.
sure, there are the people that piss you off because they are just. looking. for. trouble. but then there are people who inexplicably annoy you, or people who you just can't say oh fuck of, you bitch to. it's like kicking a puppy. or supergluing a grenade to your hand then pulling the pin out. conscience-pricking or just plain suicidal.
pfft. life ees hard. veery.